I’m sure you’ve heard of the saying that sometimes things seem to get worse before they get better. This so called Panic Point – the breakdown before the breakthrough – is the ego’s way of making it’s fear known.
You see when you ask for something more for and from yourself, you get that part of you that likes things the way they are all fired up. It looks upon these new goals and outcomes you’re setting for yourself and says “There is no way I’m going to let that happen.” Then it throws everything it has at you to get you to stop what you are doing and go back to the old ways. The ways you’ve outgrown although this part of you doesn’t realize it yet.
It’s the comfort zone you’ve created for yourself that literally fears for your safety if you change the status quo.
The breakdown shows up in both blatant and covert ways though. It could be your self-doubt and insecurities go into overdrive. It could be friends and family start acting differently towards you. It could be things you’ve been planning for awhile suddenly fall through. It could even be technology going haywire. It seems to be asking, “Alright, how badly do you want it? Are you going to move through ALL of this resistance?”
Believe me, I know. Here’s an example of what can show up when you claim more for yourself, from my own life. For weeks I’d been planning to attend a business strategy day with one of my mentors where I would be able to outline my goals for 2015 and identify the specific strategy to get there. The session started an hour earlier than I realized, even though I’d been staring at the date/time in the many emails confirming my place. My mind blocked me from seeing it clearly. Then my daughter Arwen was being super pokey in the morning that there was a good chance we were going to be late getting her to school. After we piled in the car to go, the car wouldn’t start. We literally could not move forward. The next day I received news that a distance retreat I’d been planning with another person was falling through.
My mind screamed that this cannot be happening, especially with these things that were so important. Yet that’s exactly when the crazy showed up. Perfect timing to keep me where I was. After all, I couldn’t move forward or uplevel my business if I didn’t have a plan, right. Or if the things that I did plan didn’t happen.
Luckily I recognized them for what they are. “I see you” I told them and my mind, refusing to be deterred. “You are sneaky and strong but I’m stronger.” So now I have the opportunity to show myself what I can do, even if I’m afraid and feel like I don’t know what to do or how to do it. I get to walk through this resistance and learn how much I want the things I’ve claimed for myself.
Sometimes things have to fall apart so your life can come together in the right way. In the way that wouldn’t have been possible if things had remained the same. The breakdown is necessary and so vital. It also can feel horrible and frightening at the same time. But it’s worth it.
“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and endless plans: That the moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves, too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance which no man could have dreamed would come his way. Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it! Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it.”
Commitment is powerful. And to demonstrate just how magical this is, let me tell you what’s happened. Just today (one hour after learning about my canceled retreat) I received an email stating that I was a Featured Blog Post for Huffington Post’s GPS for the Soul. Here’s the link. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/krysti-turznik/gratitude-when-youre-in-the-dumps_b_6296728.html
So the next time everything is falling apart around you, it’s time to celebrate! Greatness is on the other side of the chaos. Keep walking so that you can unlock your potential and experience your possibilities!
All the best,
Krysti
